29.4.09

.nine.

starlit night follow teary eyed fights. maybe it's the alignment of the sun, the moon and the stars. yet i can barely see through the translucence of the salt. trip over my words, my feet, face first on the pavement. i was never sure which sting was worse, but there we lay face to face in grass, staring in each other's eyes, and still denying physicality. if you kiss her it will all be over. four hours of never ending love, if you kiss her it will all be over. i couldn't sleep, she couldn't sleep, then the moment would disappear and what we had imagined for so long might slip away into the darkness. brown eyes always seem to come about whether you like it or not. i always loved blue, but have never been able to find them. it is not necessarily that i mind the brown but a bit more vibrancy is always appreciated. there was a faint smell of orange that i could not shake and i'm sure i had more than a hint of tobacco on my shirt. coffee, clove, run inside, too cold. assumption of positions. back to the eyes. it's always a turning point to look in one's eyes. as deep as you gaze you only long more to know what they are thinking, to tickle their soul, but always to no avail. it's really a fruitless endeavor. there is no secret gateway. maybe what is laid out in front of you is more than what you have for this moment, maybe it's what you will have for the rest of your life, or maybe it's just a glimpse of what could have been. don't tell anyone, it's always our little secret. not mine but ours, our first bond i guess the one thing we would have in common no matter what happened, we would have this secret to hide. not that is was something to be ashamed of but that it would be something much better left between just the two of us, no one else need know. eventually we had come to the point of the undeniable, and we had to deal with the situation at hand, or it might make for an awkward tomorrow. the puzzle worked well and neither would admit that the plan had been achieved for it was serendipitous, as we lied to each other.

21.4.09

a quick aside

a few people recently have asked me what's up with music. we were hitting the scene pretty hard for a couple months and things have certainly slowed up, this is a personal decision on my part. i'm finishing up my final semester in college, ali is earning her masters, miller is finishing up his semester of teaching and steve wishes he could quit his computer job and play music full time. aside from this all of us are active in several other musical projects at this time and are very busy gigging. in the meantime we're all working diligently on a new demo, and shuffling a few things up and possibly adding a couple new members to solidify our rhythm section. we'll be back in full swing come july, although we have a few dates booked in may and i've heard rumors of a couple dates in austin, LA, and san diego in june, just a rumor, maybe. we've also been kicking around the idea of a little tour with our friends teh missing keys in august. we'll be back soon, stay tuned, and relax with a glass of wine, now back to your regularly scheduled programming.

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